AN OPEN LETTER TO THE SLEEPLESS NIGHTS
Dear sleepless nights,
I often think the way you have accompanied me to eventually grow up & supply mental strength can’t be explained by thanking you.I have lived eternities sitting in the balcony in a moment & counted stars again & again & at last ended up mistaking.
My insomniac veins love to welcome you with warm heart as you have stirred intoxication in them,the intoxication of losing my soul & the intoxication of arresting my whole being to the darkness of night sky.I’ve always been confused in tracing love from everything & you are the only way for my evaluation with both of my conscious & subconscious mind. I’ve never given accurate judgement with the depth of gazes i saw in men.The brown voluptuous eyes would’ve signalled me to dip into the mysterious love that could fantasize me completely but i’ve never chosen them & again those oceanic inebriating eyes beckoned me not to love but to enjoy the short dalliance & rapidly vanish.I trusted them more than anything & fall down to the slabless trap of them.
I have always embraced you with the drops of my tears, with my havoc wretched heart & with the thoughts of my extremely underestimated soul.I’ve always felt mediocre in a relationship where i’ve been dominated for days,where clutching hands were even never been my first step.Whenever,i got any confusion or a symptom of wrongdoing, i come to you tiptoeing & clear my confusions in the solace of night.
I have rubbed my lips for uncountable times just to find the taste of my first kiss but never found it ,perhaps it never showered me with the love i urged for or,perhaps it tasted too casual to be remembered,& such immaculate things pervaded my mind with the help of you, the sleepless nights!
I know, i won’t ever be able to leave your inseparable bond as i’ve slowly loved your presence surpassing the dislikes of you.Now, you’ve been my habit & perhaps, i’ve been too.
I get to know the real meaning of love lies in the hearts equally skip the beats each time it gets the touch of one igniting desire.I haven’t found yet though; but i know, one day i will surely gonna get this with the help of your bliss.
Thank you for always making me realise the true side of every impactful incident!
an insomniac soul.