A splash on paper

Dead tired,sitting under a tree,holding a pen and paper in my hand,I saw a suddensplash on a paper.I began to reckon:Were it tears from my eyes indicating my griefs,sorrows,loneliness amd desire to spend the very moment with someone,putting my head on their shoulder?or were it a drops pouring down from the branches of trees one by one reflecting that I am worshipper of aesthetism?or was it hallucination and just my imagination depicting I was utopist enough to escape the realities."